Am i worthy for God to look for me?

So this was a question that we are all asked to meditate on this question during our Desert Day and this is what I came up with! im sorry if it makes like..NO sense!
Here is the verse that really, God put before me a the beginging of our day that really inspired me and like really God talking to me through the scriptures.

1 Thessalonians 2:17

17But, brothers, when we were torn away from you for a short time (in person, not in thought), out of our intense longing we made every effort to see you. 18For we wanted to come to you—certainly I, Paul, did, again and again—but Satan stopped us. 19For what is our hope, our joy, or the crown in which we will glory in the presence of our Lord Jesus when he comes? Is it not you? 20Indeed, you are our glory and joy.

1 Thessalonians 3

1So when we could stand it no longer, we thought it best to be left by ourselves in Athens. 2We sent Timothy, who is our brother and God's fellow worker in spreading the gospel of Christ, to strengthen and encourage you in your faith, 3so that no one would be unsettled by these trials. You know quite well that we were destined for them.

It's actually pretty weird. I read the question the first time and was like...what does that mean? I mean, no i don't think that I am worthy, honestly. I i think i should be finding Him. Not to say it in a "I'm better than God" tone, but instead "I am not worthy to be with God" and i my journey of finding Him is when i become more worthy. The journey that i go through, is the time when i dismiss all the distractions and obstructions of my life, and therefore becoming "closer to God". Because I, by the grace of God, have made myself worthy to be Loved by God. Or have become worthy to have God in me and be able to speak of Him, or to act ask Christ. But instead God wants me first. He wants me, and while in His loving arms, He will bless me with the wisdom, strength and courage so that i may be ridden with the things that separate Him and I.
When i am first in the arms of God, yhe tidding of sins become a need, becuase they separate me from what i had,(which was the feeling of having the love of God around me). Whereas before it has been a preparation by he mere wisdom of humanity, with God in mind, with the thought and taste of the gloriusness of yhe banquet in heaven, in order to be enveloped in the arms of God. That i mys prepare myself sot aht i THINK i know i am worthy. Yet every time of this "preparation journey" falling so short. As it says in Thessalonians 2:17.
By our creation of God, He becames more and more eager, day by day in His desire to see us in person so much that He comes to me, not only once but many tie. Becuase if He does not find me, as it says in verse 19, what is His hope or joy or crown to boast of in heaven, if not myself, For I AM His GLORY and JOY! That even after all the times i have set Him aside, all the times when i do not listen or follow to what it is that He is calling me to, if He does not want to find me, then what is it that He can be joyful bout? Becuase God loves me THAT much!!!
That those times when i am beaten down, weak, poor, that while my presence of being in God's arms arms first, of Him having found me, after having waited and searched for me amongst my unworthyness, He may send me an angel or the grace, or as it says in Ch 3 verse 2 "a co-worker for God in the Gospel of Christ" to give me the strength and to encrouage me in my life and in my faith. That through my weakness of humanity, God will send me the strength and wisdom of His divinity.

Fire Fall Down

Hey guys!


Soo this past week has been absolutly amazing. God has really...without a doubt been showin me soooo much in my heart, for the things i lack, the things i have strength and just...healing me in things i didnt even know was wrong! He been workin me in sooo many ways too its...truly a blessing to be here, so i amm soo thankful for all of you prayin for all of us here at CoveCrest, please know that we here pray for you every morning and night!





So ANYWAYS!


Last weekend was like...completely SICK!! St. Ann Marietta came here for a retreat and the music team had dropped out at the last minute and luckily Gods blessed us for having a music team here! So we became the music team for the teams and had about a day to learn all this music which was definatly the spirit workin all the way man, no joke! Anyways, these kids were confirmation kids and like..we were warned that it would be a rough crowd cause some if not most kids didnt want to be there. They came late at night first session was next to a campfire outside in the freezing cold, and we were there to play for them and lead them into some fun and into some praise and worship.And let me tell you somethin!, there is NOTHING better than praising God with your voice and talent than doing it outside, under the stars, surrounded by nothing by God's creation! These kids, like they said, were rough, but in every one of them, we could see Christ. Christ just TRYING to break out of them! Anyways, that night ended with good remarks! So the next day went on and all of us missionaries were invited to join in on the sessions and interact with them and participate in what the kids were doing, which was just...a blessing. We were also asked to be available to pray over the teens if they wanted to. So we sat in the middle of a field and waited for them to come. It was amazing. The sense of vulnerability these kids have, for some reason JUST at Covecrest, is heart warming, and giving God the opportunity to break open their lives and make them anew. Anyways, we got to know these kids very well, by name, we ate with them, chilled with them and talked and ministered to them. That night was adoration, and that was the most powerful thing of the entire retreat. It was truly indescribable of what was going on. Every kids hands were up in the air praising God, every voice was praising God, every heart was...God's. The adults and chaperones were sooo just...moved by how the spirit was flowing it was awesome. Saying Goodbye to these kids was...actually pretty hard simply because of how much we had watched them grow in Christ. How much they had taught us of how to find new ways of loving Christ. Of how possible and powerful Christ truly is. There presence and journey here was a humbling and a learning expierience for all of us. Humbling in the ways of, learning that Christ has instilled in our hearts to have the passion to do everything to get each kids that goes through here to surrender to Christ. Or even to smell the mere arouma of Christ, even when that means the surrender of our sleep or of the little personal time we get. But God had...given us the strength and just as he multiplied the loaves and fish, He DEFINATLY multiplied our rest!

Anyways!
These 3 weeks of doing God's work has truly been amazing! Please keep us in your prayers! As we are praying for all of yall both morning and Night!
Godbless love you guys!
Sean Delaney

First week!

Hey yall!
My name is Sean Delaney and im sure you guys may already know! I have most certainly been blessed to have been accepted to live in this beautiful place for the next year as a LifeTeen missionary intern! Just the frist 3 days of being here have been ridiculous! Some of yall may know me from summer staff! If you came to camp during the month of july! anyways being here as an intern, the expierience is way different then that of a summer staffer! Anyways, i miss all of my fellow summer staffer buddies! As well as all you campers! cant WAIT till camp this summer soo stoked! Anyways! the other interns here are honestly...amazing and every one of them, you can just...tell...that they are all after God's own heart. We have all given up a year of our lives join God in His mission to build up the body of Christ through the prayer, love, sacrafice, and community that Christ himself has instilled in each of our hearts, through the eyes of the Benedictines!
Anyways, here at Covecrest we have 8 interns including myself, 3 missionaries and 3 families that we all live together as a community with! The guys are amazing ha really eventhough half of the guys are cajun! ha Reggie, from downonthebayou, lousianna who is onnneee crraazzyyy cajun! Alex who is also from lousianna from lafayette who is also pretty wicked! Both of them together is life they are from a diff world dude! and ofcourse Chris from Ohio State, and aslo plans to be a youth minister after this year which is awesome! The girls are truly amazing as well! We have Carla from Georgia! who is amazing, and left her job as a youth minister to come join us on His mission! Kelsey from Minnesota, is a rockin girl that comes from one ballin family!! Her and i wear brown together. We have an LA, Cali girl! her name is Danielle, shes awesome!!! She has a major in English..... haha and last but not least, Colleen, who hails from conneticutt! She is knitting as we speak! ha anyways, these wonderful people are people are just...whose hearts are yearning for the love and Grace of God that our souls yearn for all our lives.
I know this will be an amazing year! Already we are jumping outts trees to scare the girls, doin everything together! Every morning at 7:15 we have had the blessing of having Holy Hour in front the Blessed Sacrement before Morning prayer! From then we have breakfast together, mission formation which is class about many different topics that is the meaning and pillar of the Church and the life that Christ calls each of us to lead! Then we have lunch together and then perform some sort of purpose around the camp! Then we have evening prayer, dinner, and then prayer and time to hang out with eachother as well as keep in tough with our freinds and family. Very packed day. For some reason, everyone has said that the days here just fllyyyy by cuase we are always doing something, its so hard that weve only been here for 3 days!
I am truly stoked for this year! Please keep us all in your prayers! If i may ask, please keep myself in your prayers as well, that God may continue to open my heart in this community and to continue to have the heart to do God's work! Please, email me or drop off a prayer on the Need a prayer? thing on the LifeTeen.com website and we will most definatly prayer for you!
Those of us here at Covecrest, we are here to serve God and the rest of the world through prayer and being the ever open arms of Christ!
Already God has performed soo many miracles and is in the midst of preparing our hearts for many more!
Godbless and i love yall! thank you so much!
Sean Delaney