Ballleerrrrr!

Ha just sayin...I am alive...Covecrest hasn’t kicked me out yet! Haha, I know its been so long...(4 months) simply because I’m a punk sissy and a slacker. Anyways! Obviously I have a lot to tell you about. God has truly been working absolutely so much in my heart these past 4 months.
"So what are you going to do after this year?"
That’s the question of the year for some reason. My answer is always " I haven’t the slightest clue!!" and then smile and laugh while they are standing there thinking that I have truly lost my mind!! Praise God, right? The thing is, ha is that I have, its no longer mine, its Big Daddy's! haha. My prayer for the past couple of months is that I may continuously give everything to Christ. For my vulnerability with God. That I may be as exposed as Christ was upon the Cross, in my prayer to God. I know first I must be vulnerable with Christ, and everything else will flow, whether it be my daily life, or with each kid that is present here and with each of people in the community. From my abandonment to Christ. I know that the fruit to be gained from this is to have more of an understanding, to be able to embrace more fully the fact that nothing in this world is mine. Every Joy, every struggle, every moment of desolation, and consolation. Every relationship, every conversation, each person in my life...EVERYTHING is what He has given me. To understand the fact that, during the times of desolation that I may draw my strength from no where else but Jesus.
So praise God!! Please keep me in your prayers! Ha pray for me that I may receive the grace of courage and strength and above all, Faith in God that I may unreservedly abandon everything to God putting aside all of my insecurities and thoughts of inadequacies.